I’ve had really in-shape guys, bodybuilders even, contact me.
I think they like the juxtaposition of hard and soft.
” Friends of mine were setting one another up on dates but not me.
It makes such an obvious statement—that no one would ever find me attractive because of my weight.
Then my dad died when I was 22 and I wasn’t interested in anything anymore. It wasn’t until I was 28 that I decided I wanted to date again, after I got back in touch with people from camp.It was a different world there: Size wasn’t so much of an issue, though there was a hierarchy, with the skinnier girls at the top.I had a few boyfriends every summer, and when I got really thin, I suddenly had a boyfriend back at school, too. After that it was back to the old way, and I didn’t have a boyfriend anymore. I was always overweight, but when I got to Vassar I was diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome.I grew up with a mother who told me I was amazing, who said I could accomplish whatever I wanted to. But when I was a teenager, she also started saying, “You need to lose weight.It will be harder when you get older to find your partner.” I went to weight-loss camp when I was young and was introduced to boys and the bases.